They say, lay just beneath the surface. Don’t ever let yourself bubble up over the pot. Fuck you. I’ll burn the kitchen down. Better than anyone? Definitely not. Smarter? Well… And that’s where I always stop myself. God, can I get any more up my own fucking ass? They all love us girls like […]
I went back on Hinge for a week, and it didn’t take long to realise that it was probably the last time I’d ever download the app—at least, I hope so. I know I’m way too young to feel too old for dating apps, but somehow, I do. And honestly, the idea that if […]
Did you know that when I was still in your Uti’s womb, I was already carrying the egg that would one day become you? Isn’t that crazy? You’ve been a part of me since before I was even born. I’ve carried a piece of you everywhere I’ve ever been. Cah Ayu. I think about […]
It was 2019 and my first year as a fashion marketing student. I had waited 40 minutes in front of Le Rouge with my friends in the cold. A club in the red-light district of Pigalle. They eventually all gave up and went home. I still don’t know why I stayed. The crowd around […]
Trump captured the support of young male voters in the 2024 U.S. elections, partly due to the influence of “manosphere” content creators. Figures like Joe Rogan, Adin Ross, the Paul Brothers, and Theo Von were uniquely effective in connecting with this demographic. Meanwhile, the Left struggled to resonate with young men and address issues […]
I am reading My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh, and I didn’t expect to feel nostalgic. I sometimes miss the moments I just gave in to my depression. Moments when I decided to just put my hands in the air and say to myself, “That’s it, I’m done trying,” before crawling […]
I know you’re watching. You’ve been watching me ever since I was a teenager. You’ve been watching me through the half-opened cabinet in my bathroom; you pay attention to the little drips slowly gliding down my skin— you are so close you can smell the faint scent of my almond shampoo in the steam […]
This was my 24th year alive, marking the end of my early twenties. I’ve always been radical about marking transitions in life. For example, when I was in my last year of primary school, I organised a massive game of Tag for my grade, telling everyone that since we were moving on to middle […]
“So, what was it you didn’t want to tell me?” He asked as we were driving in his father’s car. I started to cry from nervousness and maybe a little bit from embarrassment. I went to the psychiatrist for the first time a couple of days prior. My therapist recommended it; for the first […]
When my mother was pregnant with me, she had a few wishes. The usual ones, of course—a healthy and happy baby. But she also asked for a bit more: intelligence and grace. Then, she got more specific. She hoped her firstborn daughter would have the beauty of a model, an hourglass figure, and a […]
